Love..Zawir Zakwan.. a special dedication to my big baby

Dear Zawir Zakwan... my luvly son..  my eldest son... my sunshine after the dawn... Alhamdulillah.. 2 month after miscarriage Allah gave me another chance to have a baby. During the 1st trimester while carrying him in my womb.. Allah tested me with mild bleeding and need a bed rest for a week. Alhamdulillah after that everything when well and ummi safely delivered Zawir 4 years ago on 22nd January 2010. 

Such a great gift having you at that moment and ummi felt that nothing is much more important than giving you a smile. I want to snap your photo for every second like there's no more tomorrow for us.  9 month after you were born, ummi expected for another baby in my womb. It was your sister, Zinnirah. That time I felt like wow.. I will have another baby... You were getting bigger that time, smarter, can talk fluently, and very active. Sometime I did get angry with your naughty but it doesn't mean ummi hate you.. it just because ummi cannot handle my emotion.  Time past... now you already 4 years old.. and will going to kindergarten next year where I can't wait for the moment. Looking at you, you never failed to give a smile although I always scolded you because Zawir 'like' to 'usik-usik' your sibling. Yes now you have 3 siblings already, which is you, Zinnirah and Muiz.

You are a good boy, always helping me tidying the toys (even though all those messy did by your brother and sister), put aside the house chaos when you see ummi is going to be a 'lion', massage ummi when I said I'm tired and lot of good deeds.  Yes you also make ummi headache with you naughty, 'kacau-kacau adik', overacting, conquer the ipad, but those things is faded seeing your good deeds because you are just 4 years old. Sometimes, I do feel oh my baby boy is getting matured. Yes you don't want me to hold your hand in the public haha awat ingat ummi ni selekah sangat ke?  Ummi always blaming you if your sister crying not because I'm trying to be unfair but I just want to teach you to be a good brother and showing them your best attitude so that they can make it as example. Yes normally your sister crying because of you..hahaha asyik usik je kan..bukan ummi tak tau..

Last but not least... ummi love all of you and the new baby in my womb.. Zawir are going to be a very big brother next year ahead..